mindset

beads of perspiration trickled down his weather-beaten face

eyes squinting in the mercilessly sweltering sun

his arms are aching so badly

trembling legs hold him up but not for long

his fingers are sweaty and slipping inch by inch as time ticked by

his body is giving way

despite all odds he stayed up

maintaining balance he trudges forward

constantly reminding himself of the reward awaiting

he trusts in his willpower to get him one step closer

believing in his mind to forget about the pain

and placing faith in the hands of himself

he controls the situation

for it's all in the mind

and mind is over matter

all that matters

worked so hard

pushed so hard

placed my best foot forward

again and again and again

but to no avail

cause the others have got it better than me

all my efforts are going down the drain

because everything is not enough

not enough for me to excel

it does not matter who works the hardest

it does not make a difference who puts forth more

because it will all be taken from you

because you are just

not. good. enough

true sight

we all came from all parts of the globe

so different we saw nothing in common

pride and prejudice

we were not ready to sit down and see

see the similarities we shared

obvious differences overrode

the mere presence of the hidden bond

pushing through the differences

we fought to stay together

knowing we were doing it not for each other

but just cause we needed to

however, the ice have slowly melted away

and we saw how blinded we were

how the days have combined us

so tightly we're attached

by heartstrings and pulses

now, every surge and tug

i feel deep inside

for i know how they feel

for i truly see them

end

the water ahead looks choppy

the wind ahead feels strong

the air suddenly becomes thick and heavy

pulling all oxygen away from me

surrounding me,

the others turn into vultures

prowling and circling me

ready to pounce and attack

ready to flee and pull away

i pull as hard as i can

surging forward i don't look back

can't afford to, i must look ahead

focused and ready to dispense my strength

the race hasn't end

for this is just the beginning

we aren't winners

we aren't losers

not till the end of ends

worlds apart

it seems i know nothing about you

and you nothing of me

we could be so different

we're like fire and ice

we could be so similar

we think the same things

but we'll never know

because we're worlds apart

sure

when you were so sure

you had no problem believing

when you were assured

you had no worries about betrayal

when you start to doubt

you begin to wonder

when you start to lose faith

you begin to ponder hours on end

when you start to fall through the cracks

you know that it's all over

history

there was a time when i thought i was invincible

and when i thought my room was the ultimate playground

there was a time when i thought i was indestructible

and when i thought my mom was my super hero

there was a time when i thought i was super awesome

and when i thought that the television was a magical black box

times have changed

and i've evolved;

forced to conform into what i must

it was such a sweet past