sure

when you were so sure

you had no problem believing

when you were assured

you had no worries about betrayal

when you start to doubt

you begin to wonder

when you start to lose faith

you begin to ponder hours on end

when you start to fall through the cracks

you know that it's all over

history

there was a time when i thought i was invincible

and when i thought my room was the ultimate playground

there was a time when i thought i was indestructible

and when i thought my mom was my super hero

there was a time when i thought i was super awesome

and when i thought that the television was a magical black box

times have changed

and i've evolved;

forced to conform into what i must

it was such a sweet past

escape

when a book draws you away

you know you have gone over to the other side

you get lost in fiction

because you rather be there then be here in reality

this happens when reality is just too cold and harsh

to understand and withstand

you know your smile would at least be real

then the forced kind you make in this world

unruly and unkind

you retreat into the desolate world of words

and turn your back to the barren land of feelings

leaving behind all hope and disappointment

to be contented by the plain sight of words

and made up fantasy

savouring the lies of writers

and tricked into oblivion by the paragraphs of beautiful literature

blinded by the illusion of hope and desire

habouring yet another bundle of pure bliss

and fall into the traps yet again

eye candy

it started out as a feast for the eyes

how perfect your face seemed

there were no sparks

nor were there feeling

just the silent glee of seeing you

but she got greedy and wanted more

what was just an innocent infatuation

slowly turned into more

the sight of you excites her

the sound of you intrigues her

she feels the warmth spreading across her body

and the perfect face seems to glance right pass her

oh how she craves to be noticed

looked at and loved

by you

breathless

you are like a camera;

capturing me like a moment

you are like a roller coaster;

giving me the ride of my life

you are like a fire;

warming up my cold heart

you are like a woolen jumper;

caressing me like an infant

you are like the apple on the highest branch

leaving me longing for you

you are like a fascinating displaying;

forbidding me to break eye contact

you are like a vacuum;

rendering me breathless

departure

the icy cold hangs in the air

waiting for the first snowflake to fall

winter whispers its name as the wind race past our face

you pull harder on your coat

keeping the chill out

as you tug at your coat flaps

i tug my heartstrings

pacing down the cobblestone street

dimly lit by the lone street lamp

our silence screaming the deafening melancholy

the stillness of the moment does nothing to soothe the pain i feel

for you are leaving

lone

they came in,

shook my hands and make small talk

they stayed and assured a fun time

they made a silent promise to go through it all

but then one picks up the phone

and called to be picked up, to go home

then others follow suit

and left me to say bye

we decided to continue our plans

to stay and enjoy and to go through it all

but you stood up and went into a room

and beckoned the others to follow

but you shut the door in my face

turned the lock

leaving me bruised and shattered

as i sat alone and contemplated

i realised how it is that people enter and leave

leave you alone and in the dark

pearls

the strain is taut

the pull hurts

the tension so deafening

mist settle before my eyes

blur visions,contorted in the light

glassy views,changing forms and shapes

i tried to hold it in

i grabbed onto the remaining strenght

i slipped and fell

down; till the end

mask

she feels fear

but she places a strong front

she feels sadness

but she appears cheerful

she feels weak

but she shows strength

the mask will never fall

for it gives her power to stand up for a little longer

adrenaline

i hear the thumping in my ears

the heavy laboured breathing

my palms are sweaty

my vision a blur

a thousand thoughts are running through my head

someone said something

but i couldn't understand

the light buzzing all around me is driving me insane

then, the loud boisterous blare goes off

and everything is clear

i'm racing for the end

faith

when the skies have turned a shade of dark violet

when the water is gushing at unimaginable speeds

when the wind is howling painfully

when the ground is dry and barren

when the future just seems so bleak

a glimmer of light

a spark of hope

keeps the heart burning

keeps the walk shorter

keeps the faith everlasting

origami

the folds and creases

the shapes and the lines

the final product no one knows

because she's folding and creasing at random

because she'll never know what to expect

before it is done

the uncertainty though,

lessens as it draws nearer to the end

and she'll know what to expect

release

sitting under the sycamore tree

basking in the warm golden light

the grass glittery with morning dew

the silent wind light and fresh

the sugar sweet air surging through my body

i gaze up to the blue skies

a smile crept by

while i watch the bunch of coloured balloons

rose into the otherwise pale sky

climbing

the vertical ascend was toiling

beads of strain rolled down the pale face

burning an acidic trail

although the sight of others before

left the thread of confidence thinning

their hind views kept the adrenaline flowing

pushing forth,putting another step forward

it is not the end,it is not the summit

like a broken player

it keeps repeating:

it's not what you do;

it's how you do it

juggle

the people we meet in life are all predestined

the events that take place in our lives are planned

they intertwine and intertangle

for they are just like a tangle of yarn

for some,the contact is short and sweet

just like a short piece of string

for some it's toiling and brash

just like a long rough rope

reprobate

your presence used to be valued

your presence used to be cherished

but then it morphed

it changed

the air was heavy with suspicion

the air heavy with dislike

the atmosphere dodgy

the presence of us both together got weird

now your presence is no longer of any importance

become i've come to realise that you are playing a game

and well,

I QUIT

raven

it was difficult to tell if you were being honest

your actions were saying one thing

but your voice was doing the opposite

it was tough to judge if you were being sincere

you said you we were friends

but you still continue hurting me

i guess you think you have got me

got me trapped in your little game

but i am so much stronger than you think

and i'm smarter than you think

you said so yourself

that people like me,

who've gone through many things

are dangerous because we know how to survive

so ain't it dumb of you to be stepping on my tail

to be wedging war with me

well,it's your choice

your call

you are the one making life difficult

not me